i think i lost my friend..
i lose her not because they left me behind..
but i m the one who left them off..

ya..i talk a lot with many people a day..i can mixed around very fast..
i can talk loudly in public..
but i think i already give up of myself..

u tel me there is already a gap between us when we went for shopping last time..
ya,u r right..i did feel it also..

u say i dint tell u what happen to me..
ya,u r right..i didn't tell u because i really don't know how to tell u..

i really don't know how to start with you really..
and i really hope you was there when i went through all this bitter memories...

long hair is my trademark before this..
short hair..is it really suit me?

i m lost..

for the first time i felt tat i was so down..
i can't pretend nothing happen to me..
i think i need to see a doctor..o find someone else to heal to me up..
dun noe wat really happen to me..

maybe i should simply find something to busy up myself..
and totally change myself..
and i have to be tough...

ya...
long time didn't sit in front of my computer and talk about me...
its really happened a lot of things during this period..
i experienced happiness,sadness...
i do enjoy my happy moment .i met a lot of people.i see a lot..
and i learn a lot from my sad ,anxious moment also..
but i strongly believe i will get through all these ..
make myself tougher..
happier and healthier also..

taekwando is the only things that i think i did well for this period..
i love the feeling of going to taekwando class every week..
is just like i put away all the things that burden me behind..
i feel lighter..
i fell healthier..
i felt myself rejuvenate..

i don't know how to tell others about what i want to do..
i also don't know what i suppose and going to do..

i don't know my future...

"The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them...."

"You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.."

i find that the statement above really very true...
it is come form my fren,suh ping 's mind...

i agree with her...

i totally agree with her....


and

i miss him...

i gt HE presentation next monday lu..
dun noe wat to do le..
this is my first presentation since i came to college..

aiya..
better do now..
if not i sure can not done o..












about the HE assignment i actually sad o..
so to the power point slide show..
bcz i put in a lot of eeffort..
bt cant present it out..
bcz gt ppl say is rubbish wor...
wat to do...right??


shit!!

i m tired..

tired of smiling ..

sometime i thk am i pretending.

i smile to get rid of trouble..

smile to let ppl know who am i..

smile to be friendly

smile to get frens

smile to be good with someone i hate..

i hate my smile the most..