i think i lost my friend..
i lose her not because they left me behind..
but i m the one who left them off..

ya..i talk a lot with many people a day..i can mixed around very fast..
i can talk loudly in public..
but i think i already give up of myself..

u tel me there is already a gap between us when we went for shopping last time..
ya,u r right..i did feel it also..

u say i dint tell u what happen to me..
ya,u r right..i didn't tell u because i really don't know how to tell u..

i really don't know how to start with you really..
and i really hope you was there when i went through all this bitter memories...

long hair is my trademark before this..
short hair..is it really suit me?

i m lost..

for the first time i felt tat i was so down..
i can't pretend nothing happen to me..
i think i need to see a doctor..o find someone else to heal to me up..
dun noe wat really happen to me..

maybe i should simply find something to busy up myself..
and totally change myself..
and i have to be tough...