love yourself

2010-02-02T22:42:00.000-08:00

i think i lost my friend..
i lose her not because they left me behind..
but i m the one who left them off..

ya..i talk a lot with many people a day..i can mixed around very fast..
i can talk loudly in public..
but i think i already give up of myself..

u tel me there is already a gap between us when we went for shopping last time..
ya,u r right..i did feel it also..

u say i dint tell u what happen to me..
ya,u r right..i didn't tell u because i really don't know how to tell u..

i really don't know how to start with you really..
and i really hope you was there when i went through all this bitter memories...

2010-02-02T22:32:00.000-08:00

long hair is my trademark before this..
short hair..is it really suit me?

i m lost..

2010-02-02T22:28:00.000-08:00

for the first time i felt tat i was so down..
i can't pretend nothing happen to me..
i think i need to see a doctor..o find someone else to heal to me up..
dun noe wat really happen to me..

maybe i should simply find something to busy up myself..
and totally change myself..
and i have to be tough...

2009-10-24T02:26:00.001-07:00

ya...
long time didn't sit in front of my computer and talk about me...
its really happened a lot of things during this period..
i experienced happiness,sadness...
i do enjoy my happy moment .i met a lot of people.i see a lot..
and i learn a lot from my sad ,anxious moment also..
but i strongly believe i will get through all these ..
make myself tougher..
happier and healthier also..

taekwando is the only things that i think i did well for this period..
i love the feeling of going to taekwando class every week..
is just like i put away all the things that burden me behind..
i feel lighter..
i fell healthier..
i felt myself rejuvenate..

i don't know how to tell others about what i want to do..
i also don't know what i suppose and going to do..

i don't know my future...

2009-08-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

"The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them...."

"You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.."

i find that the statement above really very true...
it is come form my fren,suh ping 's mind...

i agree with her...

i totally agree with her....

and

i miss him...

2009-08-01T02:21:00.000-07:00

i gt HE presentation next monday lu..
dun noe wat to do le..
this is my first presentation since i came to college..

aiya..
better do now..
if not i sure can not done o..

about the HE assignment i actually sad o..
so to the power point slide show..
bcz i put in a lot of eeffort..
bt cant present it out..
bcz gt ppl say is rubbish wor...
wat to do...right??

shit!!

2009-08-01T02:06:00.000-07:00

i m tired..

tired of smiling ..

sometime i thk am i pretending.

i smile to get rid of trouble..

smile to let ppl know who am i..

smile to be friendly

smile to get frens

smile to be good with someone i hate..

i hate my smile the most..

o o 9

2009-07-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

what a lovely orientation odyssey night..
that day was Sunday..

i remember i reach KL at 3pm n quickly run to Sandy's room to prepare and did all make up stuff..

haha..

all of us make up in a rush because v r late already..

sandy,ashley,jess and me all of us pijak-ing our high heel to college hall because v scare that v will be late and v will not allow to go in if v late..

yeah,v did make it reach the event before 4pm..

we were so disapointed..

y i say so..?

we actually waiting inside the hall until 6 pm before the event started..

anyway..

this is the first time i attended oo 9.

everything was just so new and fresh to me..

i was very impress of the event planner,performance editor ,MC.all the crew and all the supportive team..

because i knew without all of them this event will not be held successfully..

the event end at 10 o clock.

after the event v all girls plan to go mamak stall at TBR to eat dinner lo..

v took picture and v met Justin and Alex at the event.

v eat together and have a fun time together ..

reach hostel at 11.30 and all of us took pic again before v say bye to each other bcz Justin say this is a nan de chance.haha.

all of us...

Sandy and Justin..

justin and Me.. :)

after that v start to remove all the makeup and chit-chatting..

haha..v did took picture again also..

haha..girls ma..

ashley and me..

and took bit bit pic of me also..

haha. :P

sad...

cz i dun have sandy'photo..all on her laptop lu....

and that nite i slept around 2 pm and i was late for 10 minit for the lecture next day..

haha..and i become panda at the morning also..

rock climbing is rockzzzz!!!

2009-07-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

i experirenced my 1st ever rock climbing last tuesday...

it is really nice and so qi kek...

eventhough i dint touch the last rock..

but i already very proud of myself..

because it really need physically n mentally prepare..

kurang one of of that u cant climb..

believe me..

it tak matter whether u are male o female..

often see ppl climb on the adventure tv show..

dun noe why macam easy je..

ya..ia memang easy...

easy when u stand aside with ur two hand infront..

i remember my hand actually shaking non stop once i reach the floor

sweat a lot like a cow...(cow didn sweat )

and no feeling..

thankyou Reiza ,Selishia and sin ying...

without u all i wont try rock climbing...

i happy sangat n tak regret langsung cz experienced rock climbing really occupied me...

it really add a new page in my life...

i will never forgot that day... 30 June 2009 pukul 3.3o if i m nt wrong...haha..

my friend did help me to rec down the video while i m climbing...

may be u need to senget your head when u watch..

but please la dear...kindly watch to the end la ya...

ang dengar the conversation also...cz funny!!!!!!

i trytwice...and my last shot was halang bt a girl instructor there...bengang betul!!!!haha..

haha,

actually when i was first watch this video i was shocked of my look n my body...

i had grown so much...

i begitu giant in the video...sad la i...

i remember the istructor ask me..*r u wearing skirt?*

and i secara tak malu ly take up my *skirt * at that moment and show him...

hehe..i really lupa he is a guy aldy..heheh//i malu sangat...and he smile too..

aiya..bt actually nthg also la..i actually wear jean inside lo..

bt if ppl dunnnoe he o she sure thk i wear very short skirt...that skirt is actually a baju la wei...

and at the middle part ot of the video sin ying's hand is actually halang the screen..

by the way,enjoy the video la ya...

Love my Life

2009-06-19T20:40:00.000-07:00

yesterday day was a hectic day..

ME lecture 8.00-9.00

the teacher is damn young and pretty..
kinda understand with her teaching...
bt dun like her teaching style..

IA lecture 10.00-12.00

lecture-MR Alex..kinda boring, completely blurrrrr and dont understand with his teaching..
love his kesungguhan of teaching us bt dun like the way he teach...
make us more confuse n blurrrrr.......BLURRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

HE assignment 1.00-2.30

in a discussion room that we had book two day a ago...
early bird get worm..this phrase is true..
discuss HE assignment..junrong,yeekee,ken,caquan and me...
everyone was well prepare...good job!!! i like the group..

*truly sorry to jun roong because hu lie u before this..u are really a hardworking person..
sorry cz judge without know u..sorry...i will treat u good good after this*

LUNCH 2.30-3.15
eat pai kut rice..haha...all are bone...
but yummy...haha...too hungry until forgot to take photo..pai seh ya...

IA tutorial 3.30-5.o0
gt short talk with mr alex after class when he go down letak pundi..
haha..below was the conversation within mr alex n me...

mr alex :go back nw?
jessie :ya.ermm...not really..later gt taekwando..
mr alex :(walking down stair bt stop suddenly and look at me)
watzzz?taekwando??
jessie :aiya,beginner only la...
mr alex :y u wan learn taekawndo?
jessie :to protect myself lo..
to toughen my body lo..
mr alex :taekwando is good bt not when the person tikam u..
u can not protect urself with taekawando..
jessie :ya..i knw ar..bt just learn lo..
mr alex :bt good also u learn taekwando...at least u knw smthg to protect yourself..

*reach tempat letak pundi then we stop n i say bye to him*

Mr Alex..never thought of i will have personal talk with him.....straight n smart guy..impress him but i really dunnoe wat he teaching about..
i will never forgot this conversation with him...THANKYOU..Mr Alex...

Taekwando class 5.30 to 7.30
7.30 Plan to go sri rampai pasar malam bt cant get a cab.
7.45 meet my coursemate n some senior..change plan n go eat with them at wangsa maju..
*dunnoe the name of other senior except desmond..
short talk about steven...
n i rmb the face of senior sport manager..
a cute and funny guy... serious when is necessaries n funny when that is unnecessaries..
i like the way u talk...
9.30 go back with 2 senior to hostel by teksi..
she pay for us..
RM3.10 and 4 of us so RM 0.80 per 1..
thank you ya..i will rmb it...

9.45 mandi until 10.00 wash cloth then packing bcz go back to hometown on the next day.
do all my stuff n have a short conversation with my sis..
talk until 11.30 and 12am..can not tahan aldy...

ZZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZ...........

tired day but meaningful day...
do not hope for everday in my life bt hope for 26 day out of 30 day in a month and of course the another 4 day for personel 'expense'....

Love my Life currently, so much....

betul...i Tak Tipu.... :)

guy

2009-06-19T19:49:00.000-07:00

i met a guy in my lecture...
a cute guy..
ermmm..he look like the one that i an nian when i was form 5 tuition.
haha..misshim..
but i dunoe him..
never talk to him before..
i tau his name...
n i did met him when i go out yam cha at TBR..
feel like want take my action..
bt c first la...

i really have to upgrade myself before i start a relationship...
this my prinsip...
i did pegang it...

miss u..EDIN...
i hope u knw my existance...

i m right infront...

GONE

2009-06-19T19:04:00.000-07:00

is kind a long period i dint make up aldy..

now i in college aldy..
when thk of time n convenience..
i choose not to make up..
i like n use to make up before this..
i thk make up make a girl more lady n of course more pretty..

my after make up look....

last week...my coursemate Reiza and i did have a talk about makeup..
haha..kinda impress her because she can come to college with beautiful make up...
haha...i ask her a lot of make up tips too..
base+foundation+conceal+eyeliner+brow+blusher n last lip...
bt these are all simple n casual make up...

i actually have a difficult time of drawing eyeliner...
i found that i m atually crying everytime after i finish draw my eyeliner..
n my technique also not so good...i always bcm panda at the end..

haha... i thk maybe is my eyeliner quality no good n that why it smudge all over my eye...
gotta get a really quality 1 when i gt enough money...

i like mascara too...
mascara mascara...
lentik lentik ...so cute n make eye bigger also...

i thk i need a eye tap also..make my eye bigger also..

adui...i miss make up..
i thk i want make up to class next week...
bt i shy la..
cz no one frm my fren make up to class..
malu lo..only reiza...bt she aldy biasa lo...n everyone is biasa with her with maka up on face...

dun noe how was my face condition on that monday morning..
ermm....bt if gt time n my face in good condition..i thk i try la ya..

put some color on face...

bt tired ar...
8 am class everyday...
that mean i have to wake up at 6 am!!!!!

bt wat to do oo...
i miss make up...

KAWAN BARU_

2009-06-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

A lot of my fren say i dint update my blog...

but wat i want to say to them is...

sorry..aku tak ada masa..

so this time i thk i want to write a blog about them..

i still remember the first fren that i know in my college is my course mate,Pui Yin..

V only knw each other when i m on the way go back to hostel..

i m the 1 who talk to her 1st..

haha..actually i was first stunned by her beuty..smthg like 一见钟情........

haha..i thk of wan to have a leng lui fren too..

so v know each other...

n i tell her my room number oso..

eventually she stay at hostel oso...sama blok with me oso...

but different floor la..

bt this is actually kinda good hasil that i got of my first day of school..

haha..then v really become good fren untill now..

and i always let her to wait me at the morning because i lambat bangun..

sorry ya...

this is pui yin n me...really stunning rite??

kawan forever ya....

Next..i want to talk about my other course mate pulak...

the first picture from the right is CQ...she is my second fren in the college..

V met on the second day of the school day..

saya n her actually goin the wrong way to DK5..

and i thk she same with me too...very blur ppl...

so i stop n ask her direction...n after sometime only i know she actually same course with me..

v went in dewan kuliah together n sit together too n untill now..

v almost sit together for every class v attended...

haha...very good to have her as my fren..

she wont get angry easily...bt know how to angry..

very good n nice fren...

can bully her...

n she is really leng lui too...

haha...like a teacher..

look very knowledgeable...

v always walk to school together...thank you Ca Quan..

talking about the guy beside her is Ken....

i like to call him Ken _sy...

haha..

cutier..

he is one of the four male in our class...

the last normal male..

very nice n soft spoken ppl...

haha...

an nian by a girl in our course...

bt he now on the go with one of my fren in my course...

two of them very secocok...

if gt chance i really want tell him this...

aiya...

together la...ken....

..apa nak tunggu?

haha..

the next photo is yiki n me...

yeekee=yiki

very calm n teliti girl..

polite but sporty...

really a very good example as a girl...

she is my role model...

very fair too...na sai...!!!

dun worry..i can catch up...

the third pnoto is three of us.....yiki me n cq...

very nice photo...

hope can kawan-kawan forever...

but i got question...

ermmm......who more lenglui in that photo har????

ceryn and me..

friendship ever....Daphe, siew chin, sandy, jessie, shan

kacau people...

sandy and me....

tae-kwando --ing

2009-06-12T18:28:00.000-07:00

woooooow....

after i had eager for so many year..at last i really join taekwando aldy...

before this i was kinder worry with my taekwando uniform n searching around just to find second-hand uniform...

in the journey of searching my uniform...i actually called a lot of my fren...

all of them are the fren that i dint contact for long time aldy...

i oso got a lot of new fren hp number too...

thanks ya..thanks alot...!!!

For those who really help me...!!!

even though at last i still buy the new uniform from Master Tan bt i really appreciate it..

earnin taekwando is really my dream since i was small small...
look cool n yeng when wearing the uniform..

but that was just all my innocent thinking...

haha..y i say so??

this is because it is PAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the first lesson is really kill me...kILLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!

we were ask to do all those exercises or they call stretching that the normal people won't do....

but nasib baik jugak la...

i punya urat urat all still ok n kinda open n can i still can manage to do some of the streching part...

i love the streching time the most...

If i m not wrong..

after standard 6 is aldy 6 years i dint sweat that lot aldy...

huuuuuhhhhh......nice..the whole body part is pain but is really rejuvenate n i m relaxed...

bETUL.....I TAK TIPU....

now i only attended 4 class...on the 7 class v got assignment aldy...

takuttttttttt...

but i really look forward for it...

get a colour belt....

hah...this is my next next next next next next hostel roommate...

v join taekwando...

i ajak her to join...

haha...

but i thk now she kinda like taekwando like me too...

she is Sandy...i call her bebe...

Gila Gila sikit...

but really nice..

haha..

hope i can be Master one day at the future oso...

Love Yourself

2009-04-04T01:25:00.001-07:00

big misunderstanding !!!!

2009-04-03T00:59:00.000-07:00

wow !!!!!!
stupid me...
i check again the KPLSPM application....
arrrr....i found that i misunderstanding their meaning....
actually the list haven come out....
i read wrong !!!!!!

harrr....what a big release when i know that...
wow...feel like want shout out loud now...this really kill me..

the true day of the result out in on 14 April...cant wait for that day to come...
shit shit shit..

haih...maybe i m too nervous about this...

wow...i dun noe how to express my feeling at this moment...
it is very messy and my brain is hanging...

i gotta tell my parent about this...
ystday they was very sad after i tell them..
i cant let them down..

sad day..

2009-04-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

my teacher dream broke..

i check KPLSPM today...i m not in list call to interview..
this also indicate that i cant be teacher by this way...
i dun noe what should i do next..
ermm....very sad after i know the result..

sad..

i really hope that i can attend the interview..

kinda regret with my spm result ...so bad....i cant even expect it...too bad...
feel like want to cry out loud..but i cant...i cant let my parent see that..
...

anyway...i have accept this consequences...
i cant blame anyone else...is my own fault...

hope this is a good start for me...

my only friend

2009-03-29T03:23:00.000-07:00

if i m not wrong..

i know her when i was form 1..

but i not really know her..

but when i was form 5 we only become close n buddy..

is was a CNY celebration on 2008...just last year...

sad...

i forgot the date aldy.
if i could just remember the day...

maybe v should celebrate that day...

the day we were together...

it sound little bit lame...

but it is a phrase truly come from my heart..

the photos people always ask who is the owner

still gt a lot of photo...
but i dun wan upload...

because u look prettier than me...
na sai lo...

friendship forever..
hope this ship can last long...
even you gt your half at future...

hope i will get my half soon.....

this is my first time blogging..!!!

2009-03-29T02:52:00.000-07:00

this is my first time blogging..!!!

i had see a lot of my friend blogging..

they manage i t well...

hope i could done than them...haha..

Never blogging and never write any diary before

kinda worry ...

anyway..

.....

i m coming !!!

love yourself

o o 9

rock climbing is rockzzzz!!!

Love my Life

guy

GONE

__KAWAN BARU___

tae-kwando --ing

Love Yourself

big misunderstanding !!!!

sad day..

my only friend

this is my first time blogging..!!!

KAWAN BARU_